Anonymous Devotee from India says: I became Baba’s devotee 3 years back, when I was in a very disturbing situation. After that my faith in Him grew steadfast. It was through this blog only, I found calmness and joy by reading unfathomable Leelas of Baba. Baba has guided me and showered His blessings throughout and if I happen to do bad, He like a mother gets angry and shows me the right path.
My experience is as follows. This year, I went into a relationship with a very loving person, who is also Sai believer. Everything was fine, but I did a very big mistake. I hid and lied about my past from him. Although inside I felt guilt, but the fear of losing him prevented me from facing it and telling him about it.
During this, face distance started growing between Baba and me. Usually the time and dedication I used to devote to Him got lesser and similarly my mind got very fickle. I couldn’t pray with full attention. I realized this and asked Baba to put me on the right path, so that I couldn’t be away from him. Then one day to my horror, all my fears came true and he got to know about everything. When he confronted me I lied, which he knew so, he decided to leave me and told me I wasn’t what he thought me to be. I knew by hiding some details, I had done wrong, but I had given my all efforts and love in this relation.
I knew I had only my Sai. I went to Him and begged and cried in front of Him. I again started to read Sai Satcharitra and Sai Kashta nivaran mantra and remembered Baba full heartedly and also read Sri Vishnusaharam on advise of Baba. That person didn’t attend my phone and even refused to meet me. At that time I was so broken. I even send request to take my prayers to Shirdi, but she also replied back as her son is small this diwali, they will not go. It disheartened me further. But I kept faith in Baba’s feet. I used to ask questions on yourssaibaba.com. I asked Him whether everything will be fine and I got this reply “Remain calm. This is beneficial. Sorrow will end”. So I stopped calling him. After some time, I still was anxious and again asked question and the reply was “You will meet someone and you will get back the thing lost”. I had tears in my eyes. I thanked Baba and was filled with hope.
Then the next day, he called me, but didn’t speak. So I called him. After series of calls, we decided to meet in the evening. When he came in the evening, he behaved really normal and forgave me for it. I really can’t thank Sai enough for blessing me and putting me on right path .Baba, You also forgive me and always keep loving me. Bolo Anant Koti Brahmanand Nayak Raj Dhiraj Yogi Raj Parbrahma Shri Sachitanand Sadguru Sainath Maharaj Ki Jai