Om Sai ram , I am very new to your site since I have started reading your blog just from a week ago. I never thought this soon I will share my experience. Please edit wherever necessary as I am new to this site. Please don’t include my name and e-mail id.
I don’t know how to describe because while typing this my hands are shivering as still I can’t believe what has happened in this one week time. I believed in Sai Baba, but never had much attention towards Him. I used to worship Him as any other God. I had been going through rough path of life for so many years. I had dreams of Sai Baba, but never took it seriously. Since I have started reading experiences of devotees in this site, I understood how stupid I have been these years, when Sai aba himself came in my dream. But I never understood Him. Thanks to all the people whoever posted in this site and to creators, who have seeded the faith in people like me.
One dream which I can never forget is that when I saw Sai Baba in His own form in a saffron kafni. I remember in dream that He was coming along with His devotees surrounding Him and lots of devotees, where standing at both the sides to see Him. Whereas I was there just looking at Baba. When from a long distance He waves His hands towards me to come close to Him, then He takes a cloth bag or some sort of cover from me and smiles and then He goes back. I don’t know what was there in that bag. I never did understand the dream. As I said I was not a big devotee of Sai Baba at that time. I just thought that God is with me, I was very happy.
I want to tell how this blog changed my life. I started reading this blog from 13 Feb 2013. I was so touched by Baba’s grace towards all I became addicted to this blog and Sai Baba that I read day and night without doing any other thing. I came to know about Shree Sai Satcharitra from the devoteesexperiences and was dying to read it. So I downloaded it from a website as I don’t know where to get the book. I started reading simply like any other book. When I finished 7th chapter, I couldn’t continue further because of the usual girl’s problem. I thought I will read after 4 days. Then again when I started reading, I could not continue because of some interruption. Also I have migraine problem because of which I was having problem to look at my laptop for long hours at this time.
I read through the net that Shree Sai Satcharitra has to be read in a pure way. I understood why I couldn’t read the book because I was doing it in wrong way. Just yesterday (18 Feb 2013), I was telling Baba that I will read the book in proper way. Please forgive me for the mistake I did. I then thought if I could get the book version it would be very nice as I can sit and read before Sai Baba. Thinking this way, I was telling Sai Baba that where can I get the book as I rarely go out and don’t know where I can get it? I am sure soon I will get this book with Your grace and will start reading. From 13 Feb 2013, every day of my life started and ended with reading this blog. But today (19 Feb 2013), I couldn’t read the blog as my dad was using my laptop. I was much upset and in the noon and went to sleep. Suddenly I got up and was very sad that I am not able to read the devotees experiences today. That’s when the miracle happened. Maybe Baba wanted me to post my own experience, which I am doing now. As soon as I got up from the sleep, I was just checking my books cupboard for no reason. I got the Bhagavath Gita book. I thought I should place it in the table, where I keep books. So I took it out and when I went near the books table, I thought I should remove the last book from there and place this book there. When I took out the last book to my biggest surprise, which I still can’t believe is that the book which I removed was Shree Sai Satcharitra. I was stunned for minutes. I don’t know either anybody from my family know that such book is there in our home. My mom said maybe when we went to Shirdi once in 2005 or 2006 at that time, we would have brought it. But we never opened the book since these many years.
The surprise is that we have shifted our house so many times these years and I used to check the books often in the table as there are only few books I have. I never noticed this book for nearly 8 years. From 2005 only the problems started in my life. I was just thinking today that if I had seen this book at that time itself, it could have changed my life. But I realized that as Sai Baba says we have to pay for our past karmas. He was quietly there watching over me and protecting me and when time came and when I started to believe in Him, He is showering His blessings on me by giving me the book to read.
One more thing as I mentioned at the time, this one week I have had so many experiences as I saw Sai Baba in my dream in a dark background with white dress. I was first scared, but to my surprise I saw His original photo, which was took in 1906 in net and I realized that I saw the same, and again yesterday (18 Feb 2013) in the noon, I saw Sai Baba in dreams also. I saw a wooden bed like thing in which I saw mud covered with flowers and so many people surrounding it. I could remember that it was not from what we see in these days right from the people to the wooden bed like thing, which I saw. I was thinking about this once I got up and looked at Sai Baba’s statue and said I don’t understand Baba then while I wasreading this blog, something struck my head as I thought whether it was Baba’s Mahasamadhi, which I saw in dreams. Suddenly my hands went to see the site, where there was Baba’s original Mahasamadhi photo. I was dumbstruck as what I saw in dream matched the photo. I have attached the photo, which I believe I saw in my dream. I never did know that there could be original pictures of Sai Baba until I saw both in dreams. Lots of thanks to Sai Baba.
I have been struggling with life even after passing degree with good grades. I couldn’t get job as something goes wrong every time. I attend the interview and get selected, but because of some reasons I couldn’t get the job. I felt that I have become dependable on all and was feeling very painful for more than one and half years, when suddenly I read some lines from Shree Sai Satcharitra how Sai Baba used to beg for food from people of Shirdi. I realized that Baba is conveying something towards me. I understood Sai Baba knows what is better to whom He will help, when correct time comes.
I feel if Sai Baba can be so kind towards a person like me (who doesn’t deserve), who never gave attention towards Him and is showing His presence every time, I feel alone how much are those souls blessed, who worship Him for so many years. Thanks to all because of You all my life have changed and I realized Baba’s blessing towards me. With Baba’s blessings, I am going to start reading Shree Sai Satcharitra. One thing I realized is that Sai Baba hears all our pains even when we don’t tell Him. He knows the right thing for us and will never leave us alone. I wanted to share all this with you all because I know none other than the devotees of Sai Baba could understand this happiness. Believe in Sai Baba. We never know what unbelievable miracle He will do to us. Om Sai Shree Sai Jai Jai Sai.