Om Sai Ram,
I have to admit, exactly an year ago, I lost faith in every God ( I am a Hindu). I even stopped believing in Shridi Sai Baba. I did not act like a Hindu at all! I ate beef and all sorts of meet and denied that I was a Hindu. My boyfriend left me this year. The second he decided that we will not get married, I turned to Shridi Sai. I slowly became closer to him day by day. I visit the Mandhir every single day. I love Shridi Sai Baba. He gives me comfort and listening to his Bhajans make me ever so happy.
Shridi Sai Baba, there is only one single wish that I have. I really want my boyfriend back and I want him to marry me. I want his parents to disclose the differences between us and accept me. Baba I have fallen in love with other boys. But this one is special. You know I tried to move on, but I CAN’T. He is in my heart and mind. It’s like he is just sewed there permanently. I am experiencing true love. I have never experienced that, but now I am. The feeling of being ignored by someone who you truly love to death is just bitter. I am dying every single day Baba. I really want to sometimes just end my life, but I know I can’t. Baba I have vowed you so many things, I promise you that I will fulfill every single vow the second my boyfriend comes back to me and agrees to marry me. “Samarda Sadguru Sai Nath Maharaj Ki Jai”
I love you Baba.
I pray for all the devotees and all of Baba’s creations.